Rice Cooker Chicken and Rice "Teri-Waki."

Ok, so my three year old mispronounces things A LOT. Throw in words that have "F's" and "K's" and it's all  hilarious until someone rolls their eyes at you... Party poopers.

Originally, I had planned on making egg rolls tonight for dinner but instead I ended up with hundreds of little surprises in the head of nappa cabbage. Aphids. Not exactly who I wanted to invite to dinner. So nothing was thawed and there was no way I wanted grilled cheese, again. So quick search was on and I honestly make this three if not more times a month because it's super yummy. But this is the first time I've written down the recipe and shared it!

You can make this on the stove top just like you would normally, I used my rice cooker because it's no fuss. I just throw everything in there and set a timer and stir one or twice and it's that simple. But I have made this on the stove even with instant rice.

I know... I know... less words and more directions and ohhh pictures...

Ingredients:

1 cup rice (if you use instant go by the directions on the box and I don't recommend it's use in a rice cooker)
2 cups water
1/3 chopped match stick carrots or 2/3 cups of small diced carrots (frozen is fine)
2/3 cups of frozen sweet peas
1/3 cup of Teriyaki sauce (I am a strict House of Tsang Korean Teriyak Stir Fry Sauce user)
1 12.5 oz can of drained cooked chicken, I broke the chunks into strands while in the can. (I used an organic brand... I threw away the can before I could get the name.)

1 cup of water on reserve in case rice is uncooked towards the end, I find this to be an issue with the brand of rice cooker that I own.

1/2 cup of teriyaki sauce to add in once rice is done cooking.

Directions:

1. Rinse the rice two to three times in a bowl of water until water is clear. DO NOT rinse if you are using instant.
2. Add in rice, water, veggies, 1/3 cup of teriyak sauce and your canned chicken. You can follow the directions on the bag, box or what your rice cooker calls for. In my rice cooker it takes about 30-40 mins to cook. Stir once or twice and continue cooking until rice is cooked through. I find that about after 15-20 minutes I have to add in extra water and continue to cook but I am fairly certain that's my rice cookers fault.
3. Add in the remaining 1/2 cup of teriyaki sauce and stir, let it warm up a little and it's finished!

You can mix in a small can of chopped water chestnuts, frozen broccoli, chopped mushrooms, green onions/scallions, peppers,etc!

This also makes awesome left overs and freezes well!

Enjoy!

Apple, Pear, Strawberry and Rhubarb Sonker.

Why hello there! Long time no post! I am making my return. The reasons will be in another blog but for now lets talk about something yummy!

So after much debate, I've deiced to called this a Sonker, rather than a cobbler or crumble. One for the fact the topping is sweeter, there are no oats and there's baking powder added to make this yummy treat. I felt like baking something from scratch and haven't done in a very long time. But I didn't want chocolate, GASP! I know but I just wasn't craving it!

Jumping right in, here's what you will need:

For topping:

• 1 1/3 cup flour
• 3 tablespoons white sugar
• 3 tablespoons brown  sugar
• pinch of salt
• 1 teaspoon baking powder
• 1 tablespoon vanilla
• 1 stick of  butter melted

For mixture:

• 2 cups roughly 1/2 inch sliced Rhubarb
• 2 cups quartered Strawberries
• 2 small or one large peeled and cored Granny Smith Apples, roughly chopped
• 2 D'anjou pears ripe BUT FIRM, peeled, cored and roughly chopped
• 1/2 cup pineapple/orange/apple/lemon juice for pears and apples to soak in to prevent browning                          
• 5 tablespoons of corn starch.
• 1/2 cup sugar

Directions:

1. For Topping: Mix all the dry ingredients. Then add in the melted butter and vanilla until large clumps and crumbs appear. Set aside covered in the fridge. 
2. Preheat oven to 375 degrees. 
3. In small bowl mix the sugar and corn starch. 
4. In large bowl add the fruits and coat with the cornstarch and sugar
5. Place  into a greased casserole dish
6. Evenly top the fruit with the crumble topping
7. Bake at 375 for 40 to 50 minutes until topping starts to brown and mixture is bubbling.

Enjoy with vanilla ice cream or plain! But you HAVE to let this cool down completely, not even warm, it has to be cool/cold! Or you will suffer with a watery crumble! So you have been warned, you must wait to let the cornstarch do it's job! Also if it's not cooked long enough, it may become watery too because it hasn't  had time to let the cornstarch do it's job.

Enjoy!

Did someone say.... Pancakes?!

Two confessions here:

1.)I could live off of pancakes FOREVER.

2.) I used to ONLY use the pre-mixed just add water kind and not because I didn't know how to make pancakes from scratch but I was just one of those "too danged lazy and I need my carb fix NOW" kinda person.

Pancakes are forever attracted to my hips. They are best friends for life. It will be the one food I will never cut out of my life, ever.

I started to think about my food spending and how I could be a little more "thrifty." And at nearly three dollars a box and needing about two boxes a week to feed my troop and my cravings, I had to find something cheaper. It would be a cold day in hell before I gave up my beloved carbs and the cheap mixes are just that, cheap. I knew how to make them from scratch. Those who know me, know I am not an "up and at em" kind of gal in the morn. I could sleep in until noon if allowed, too bad I can't reprogram the kids and there's this darn thing called school that gets in the way. But this is now just as quick and even tastier than the pre-mixed kind!

Really basic but yummy recipe. I am sure you can find it just about any where on the interwebs.

Here's what you will need:

1 egg lightly beaten
1 to 1/4 cups of milk (Have extra on hand for thinning)
3 tablespoons of melted butter
2 teaspoons vanilla
1 and 1/2 cup of flour
2 tablespoons sugar
2 and 3/4 teaspoon of baking powder
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

Here's what you do:
1.) Combine all dry ingredients. Set aside.
2.) Pour in butter, egg, milk and vanilla. Mix until most but not all lumps are gone.
3.) Add milk until runny enough to pour on to a hot griddle/pan. You want it pour-able, a little thicker than syrup but not too thick.
4.) Pour your desired size pancake on the pan, when you have bubbles on the sides and in the middle of the pancake batter, flip.
5.) Remove when other side of pancake is a dark golden brown, you may have to poke the center of the pancake to ensure it's cooked thoroughly.
6.) Repeat until all batter is used.

I get about 6-8 pancakes with this and it makes about 2 to 2.5 cups of batter. Also you may have to use cooking spray but I never do but that will depend on your cooking skill and the quality of the pans you are using.

Also now that I am exclusively only making them homemade, I don't even need to look at the recipe, I just start making them. That's how easy and quick they are!

Enjoy with your favorite butter and syrup!

Mamma's Chili Spice mix. *gift idea*

This is pretty much a generic recipe/mix you can find it any where on the internet BUT that's because it's so good! I remember when I first used this, it had no instructions on how MUCH to add to your meat/meat sub when cooking. Let's just say I can still remember the heat on the back of my tongue years afterwards. But if you add and taste as you go, you will be fine. Remember when it comes to heat, less is more.

Really simple to throw together and you will say bye-bye to the packaged stuff you were buying!

Here's what you will need:

1/4 cup flour

1/2 tablespoon of crushed red pepper

1 tablespoon of dried minced onion

1 tablespoon of dried minced garlic

4 teaspoon of chili powder

2 teaspoon of white sugar

2 teaspoon of ground cumin

2 teaspoon of dried parsley

2 teaspoon of salt

1 teaspoon of dried crushed basil

1/4 teaspoon of black pepper

Directions:

1.- Add to either a container you can seal or ziploc baggie and mix.

2.- When cooking add a little at a time until you get desired spice and flavor. Remember less is more when it comes to heat, unless you love heat!

Final note if you want to give as a gift:

If you want to make this as gift:

Multiply the above ingredients by 4 to get three Mason 8 oz jelly jars.

Multiply by 8 to get six mason 8oz jelly jars.

Multiply by 12 to get nine masons 80z jelly jars.

Multiply by 16 to get twelve mason 8oz jelly jars.

Enjoy!

Closing the distance update. 11/17/11

102 days

2453 hours

147288 minutes....

Until M gets here.

Yep. Someone is excited! I mean I even know how many full moons there will be until he gets here...

So this will be the real solid start to our relationship. I think the plan is for his relatives in the States to meet me, approve of me and then introduce the idea of marriage to his parents back in Pakistan. They are well aware of M's plans to marry me.

Although I fear them not accepting me due to my divorce, the girls and my age. Even though everything is well justified, it's not the norm in their culture and I've accepted this. There's a chance where they wont approve of me, period. It's a reality that we've both come to accept. M has made it clear of his choice but I fear that he will choose his family over me anyways . We may end up doing things our way and that way isn't something that I want to happen. It would be much better if they accepted me and the girls into their family with open arms but that may be too much dreaming on my part. I don't want to be the one who causes a rift in the family and I am afraid that if we do the Nikah without their knowledge and consent that it will cause major problems. I don't want M to go through that stress but at the same time I do not want to lose him.

It leaves me feeling very selfish.

So it appears he will be here on a 90 day visit and then possibly extending that for a total of six months. Who know what could happen then but I know having to put him a plane home will kill me. So maybe he'll change his mind and stay. Wishful thinking once again.

M is going back to the embassy this week and I am sure we will talk more about this in detail some time this weekend.

Writing adventures.

I've drifted back out into the world where I need to find my roots. To embrace the things that make me strong and strengthen the things that make me weak. I am out to reclaim who I was, the person that I lost so many years ago. The artistic, smart and driven women I once was. I'll find her and I will be ecstatic to be reunited with her so that I can finally feel whole and comfortable in my own skin. I've grown accustomed to seeing the shell of who I was once was and living with the emptiness I have known for so long. I will no longer be a ghost of the past. I can thank M for bringing me back to life and allowing this new found desire to grow and supporting me through this. M is truly a great man and it's because of him that I am writing again.

So in turn, I have several projects on the burner and I feel overwhelmed but excited. Something that I excel at apparently.

I will leave you with some excerpts because nothing is final yet and my blog has set long enough without attention. And yes, I will post a recipe here soon because I finally found my camera! I misplaced it and found it today while cleaning out the van... don't ask me how it got there.

I am currently writing and still researching my main piece for a project that I am doing on food hunger and food insecurity in America. Something that has already began to open my eyes and I haven't even began to start this experience but here is a little excerpt from what I have written.

We live in a country where one in every six people faces hunger every day. We are supposed to be a power nation, we are an industrialized and democratic nation, yet we cannot even feed our own people. Sure, there is the nationally funded food stamp program but it’s underfunded and only rarely helps fully prevent hunger and food insecurity. There are countless soup kitchens and food banks, but they still remain underfunded and in desperate need of food. How is it that we are leading nation; yet we remain in the bottom five for poverty rates? How is that even possible and even permissible? Have we become so blind to our nations own needs and troubles?

Then I began to write something loosely titled "The woman beneath the scarf." I don't think it will be a start and finish project but more of an on going thing that I will write about as I experience it. Here's a brief blurb from it.

To be frank, I kind of like wearing a Hijab but I also like the loose warm comfort of a scarf draped over my head that is now common place in Pakistan. When I wear a hijab, I feel in a sense that I am protecting my femininity and that I do not have to worry about superficial beauty. I feel safe. Oddly, society has taught me that hijabs are not a sign of safety but of oppression. I hate to say it but I do not find that to be true. But then again, I have yet to wear one out in public…

But I plan to and I will write about it.

I am not sure how my fiance will feel about this but there is something compelling me to experience this part of Islam and write about it. I think he fears that others will perceive him as being oppressive and it’s true, I think some will but how can I honestly know what I am writing about if I do not go out and experience it? How can I impact others thinking if I have no firm proof to back up my own opinions and thoughts?

I hope you will stick around as I write. Something that I so desperately want to get back too. This is part of who I am and this blog reflects this. So fingers to keys, I move forward with my new adventure of finding me.

Dreams I have and dreams I shouldn't have.

I tend to try to protect myself in my little "fairy tale dream bubble." I am a planner, through and through. It's not a "type A" kind of thing but more of a way to cling to all things positive. You see, I don't plan on the negatives but only for the positives. So I am less likely to rush out and buy life insurance then I am for something for our marriage (that God only knows when it will happen.) Yes, I am guilty as sin. I have bought stuff, already.

It's only one thing, does that get me off the hook?

I will talk marriage until I am blue in the face and you've died of boredom. Why? Because the idea of having something so positive in my life, makes the negative of the past and the present disappear. And every day I get closer, the future gets brighter and the past fades away. It's a start of a new life, one I oh so deserve.

Call it denial, call it being a coward but at least I know what I want and how I feel. Which is something that a lot of people can't even do.

So let me look at dresses, let me look at wedding details, let me have my dreams.

It's not like I am dreaming of mansions, maids, nannies and diamonds, goodness. I mean really who dreams of those kinds of things?

All I dream of is being beside a man who will love me for my faults, for my cracks, my dings through sickness and health, for richer or poorer, someone who will honor and cherish me all the days to come. It's the one day that I've never had and it cements our relationship forever.

What's not to love about that?

So if our wedding is a year from now or three years from now, I am going to dream these dreams. It does not mean I am being naive or impatient. Nor does it mean I am day dreaming, it's just my motivation. It gives me so much to work on, goals to set and reach, things to fix and improve and what's not great about that?

It's not like I am dreaming of perfect wedded bliss, that life will be perfect afterwards and some how everything will be right. I get that reality isn't quiet like that but I do intend to lay some foundations and a clear path for the future. I do not want a marriage that will end in divorce and I am pretty certain that it wont but being the wise planner I have certain things I need to have happen prior to marriage. Although, I am willing to compromise and allow for changes, there is a "list."

So some of my requirements (not set in stone) before marriage consist of:

• We have dated for a minimal of six months in real life and in the same country but would prefer a year prior to marriage.
• X amount of money in savings.
• Both have gainful employment, either full or part time.
• We both have working, in good condition cars with no loans.
• We have a place that the rent/mortgage is well under what we can afford.
• We have no excess debts, IE credit cards, etc.
• We have a detailed and concise financial plan and back up.
• X amount of student loans paid off.
• We both have a monthly budget that has been in place for an x amount of months prior to marriage.
• Pre-marriage workshops, communication, parenting, etc.
• We have a clear knowledge of what each other needs and wants are.
• We have no shreds of doubts, I wouldn't ask him to marry me or vice versa if there was even the tiniest amount of doubt.
• We both have taken our health and mental wellness to where it needs to be.
• There's many more but of a more private nature.

And you all thought I was rushing into this.... pssssssssssssssst. Yes folks, I do know what I am doing... for now.

Rice cooker Mac n cheese AKA "Mmmmmmm..."

You know that little dusty box, sitting some where hidden in your house that you got as a wedding/house warming/birthday/etc gift... You are going to want to go get that NOW. Or you can just buy one tomorrow, first thing in the morning because this is the ultimate comfort for your soul Mac N Cheese.

Ok, I knew I needed to buy one because M's food requires A LOT of rice and I have a lot of time to practice cooking South Asian food. Ironically, I haven't cooked rice in it at all. I've cooked Mac N Cheese in it more times than I can count and no I am not Mac N Cheesed out yet. Over my dead body will that ever happen...

So yes, this idea of cooking MNC in a rice cooker with so few ingredients scared me. But I put on my big girl apron and did it anyways. Now my oven will never see a casserole dish full of MAC. Sorry oven, you just don't do it for me anymore.

Simple, easy and yummy.

Here's what you will need:

16 oz (roughly two cups) of either chicken or vegetable stock.

2 cups of uncooked elbow macaroni

Salt and pepper to taste

3/4 cups of milk

2 cups of freshly shredded cheese. (DO NOT BUY PRE SHREDDED CHEESE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY! No really don't. It wont melt correctly. PLEASE don't. I used a mix of Monterrey Jack, Provolone and Mozzarella. You can use any combo you'd like.)

Here's how you do it.

1) Add in stock, elbow macaroni and salt and pepper. Cover and switch to cook setting for at least 15 minutes. Stirring about every five minutes.

2) Shred your cheese.

3) When noodles are al dente switch your rice cooker to the "warm" setting, then add in the milk. Then add your cheese in about a third at a time. Folding each batch in until melted making sure to lift from the bottoms and sides. Once all the cheese is in and melted, re-cover.

4) I let mine "cook" on warm stirring often allowing it to thicken and this also keeps the noodles cooking to the bottom of the pan.

5) Enjoy!

New wedding pretties.

Manyunderfoot's photostream on Flickr.

Inspirations for our American wedding. We are def doing the typical american wedding, with him in a tux but I am def throwing some Pakistani flare in to it. It will really show case who we are.

Closing the distance update. 10/9/11

This is a good news, bad news update. I was hoping for good news all around but it is what it is. So like having a splinter, it's best to pull it out before it festers and get infected.

As of yesterday M can't not get a visit visa due to the circumstances between Pakistan and the US. *grumblegrumblegrumble*

This is where I would of shed tears because I had hoped that he'd be here for my birthday and while I was on break. I had almost a whole month off in December and I wanted so desperately to spend most of that with him. Now we have to wait until the end of October to see what will happen then. Because the only visit visas they are allowing are for "official business." Ha. Someone better tell the government that I AM "official business!"

When he reapplies for his visit visa he will then have up to 15 days to have his interview. Then after that it could take two to two and half months for him to be able to fly to the States. So he could be here at the end of Dec or towards the end of Jan.

It's not M's fault, this I know. But I am kind of sad because I had gotten my hopes up to see him sooner. I know nothing will keep us apart. I had just wished it was sooner because I know what awaits us when we are together. I can't wait and having to wait another month is some what testing my patience. Ok, it's not some what, it is testing my patience. I am not very patient and the saying "Good things come to those who wait." dose not apply to me. It's a flaw of mine and I've come to embrace it and work with it. Others learn quickly to embrace it too or I would to think that.

The good news, well I am not allowed to say anything about that just yet.

Hey don't get mad at me. It's M's fault. ;]

But I am looking forward to it. Because at this point, I am not going to let go or give up. I love M so much that I wont give up on him. I can't picture my life without him and if that means I have to go to Pakistan to marry him, then I will. Then I can bring him back as my husband and we can start our new life in the States. That's last resort and we both pray that it wont come down to that but I am not afraid to do that. As much as he will fight for me, I will fight for him. This love is real and if you could see and listen to us when we talk at night, it would be apparent to you. There is no doubt in our love. Our love is so strong that we wont allow 8k miles to keep us apart.

In the mean time I will try to keep busy by learning how to cook more South Asian food and learning more about Pakistani culture. It's hard when it's just you and you have no one to ask for advice. I have no one to taste my food, poor M. He's going to be a guinea pig when he gets here. I want to make him breakfast, lunch and dinner one of the days he is here. I want to blow him away with my cooking. I can't wait just to be able to look into his eyes and only have him a foot away from me. I cant wait to hear his heartbeat, to feel his breathing, to feel his touch and to feel his love.

If you know how to speed up time, please let me know because this going to kill me!

Your questions and our answers!

I've been asked some pretty common questions about our relationship and opinions. So instead of answering them individually for the both of us, I had M answer them as well. That it you get his view points as well as mine. I think we are pretty much on the same page. I also hope this answers some of the questions that people have.

So without hesitation here is the top 20!

Are you required to wear a Hijab?

S- No, I am not. I do not think that M would require me to wear a head covering unless deemed needed by tradition. There are certain times where I am required to wear a head scarf like if I were to pray, etc. I am sure M can elaborate more because I do not know all the times I am required too.

M- I will try to explain very briefly here. First of all why Hijab is required in Islam? It is said in Quran that “A woman’s best jewellery is her shyness.” Hijab is practiced to cover up the head and the body from a stranger man who may look with an evil eye and with bad intention towards a woman. Hijab isn’t obligatory unless you’re praying. It’s the time when you’re required to cover your head. Hijab is practiced when women go out in the markets and there are every kind of men who may look at them with bad intention, so just to avoid that condition Hijab is worn but of course it’s up to me here if I want S to wear that or not. With me, it’s totally okay, I don’t want her to wear a Hijab. I’m there to protect her! Nobody can dare look at her with bad intention when I’m around.

Are you forced to convert to Islam?

S- No. M has already stated that he loves me regardless of what I choose.

M- I’ve never forced S to convert to Islam. I always told her about it whenever the religion came up in our conversations and she always develops interest in knowing more about my religion and asks me about different things that we practice. I have accepted her the way she was.

What about Muslim traditions?

S-I will observe them when need be out of respect and love. I will not be able to partake in Ramadan due to my blood sugar issues. We will also follow dietary traditions unless M has other thoughts on this.

M- That’s alright S will not be able to partake in Ramadan because of obvious reasons, and that’s quite okay. I look forward to be following dietary traditions as much as possible. Eating ‘Pork meat’ is prohibited in Islam, so we’ll restrict ourselves. As far as other dietary traditions are concerned, they can be followed if possible provided means of availability is there. Otherwise it’s okay.

What about the girls? Will they be forced to convert and follow traditions?

S- We’ve had an in depth conversation on this subject. We will teach them about Islam and Muslim traditions. We will never force them to become something they do not want to be. Yes, I will have them follow traditions that we both approve out of respect. It will be used as tool for greater good and knowledge. If they want to convert or not when they are older, we would be supportive and loving either way.

M- No, certainly not. I would never force the girls to convert or follow traditions. However, I and S together will, from time to time, tell them about the culture and traditions and discuss religion with them. Rest is in their hands, as they grow up they will be able to see and choose what’s good for themselves.

Since we know you are planning on having more children, what about those children and Islam?

S- M wants them to be brought up in Islam. I do not have an issue with this. The girls have had years of other religions and cultures beneath them, so it would be more abrasive and alien to the girls and tarnish their opinions on Islam. By this time the girls should have had enough exposure to be OK with their step siblings being raised fully in Islam traditions. If our biological children decided to no longer accept Islam, then I will love them and supportive them no matter what because they are still my children.

M- Yes, we will be having children and I really want them to be brought up as Muslims with a positive and humble character, the way Islam truly teaches about. I would be upset if they decide to no longer accept Islam, this would mean my failure as a father. I want to choose the best for them when they’re growing up, so the best I could choose for them would be as Muslims - being pious, honest, and sincere and believers in Allah. This would benefit them in this life and the next. My success as a father would be when I make their faith strong in Allah and be good followers of Islam. I don’t want to force them to follow the religion, but my upbringing will be in such a manner where they will gladly accept Islam with all their heart and wouldn’t feel forced to accept it.

Will you force arrange marriages for your children?

S- S-No. I believe in love marriages. I hope to set a wonderful example for my children that you are free to love whom you chose. No matter their gender, race or religion. I do hope that they would respect my opinions but I will respect their choices because in the long run I want what is best for them.

M- Force arranged marriage is a strong term. I wouldn’t have them forced arrange marriages instead they will have the right to marry the person they love.

Will you be forced to stay home or will you be allowed to work and continue your education?

S- We’ve discussed this. I am allowed to work and go to classes if I choose too. I will be a stay at home mom after our children are born until they are older and I will return to work or classes if need be. I feel that I need to be at home when they are young.

M-I would never force S to stay home. She will have my complete consent to work and continue her education. Only when the children are very young, I would want her to take care of them and be home because that’s when a mother’s role comes in. Other than that, I wouldn’t mind if S wants to work and continue her education.

What about gender roles and household duties?

S- Ha. M has already told me he plans to help me so that I do not have to carry this burden by myself since I have carried it so long on my own. It’s going to take some getting used to because honestly I am so independent. I do long to take care of him and our household and I would get a great sense of satisfaction in doing so.

M- I’ll be very co-operative and helpful when it comes to the gender roles and household duties, I guess that’s just how I am. I really look forward to helping and giving her S* a hand with the household duties since she has carried it so long on her own and now I need to play my role being with her.

What about food?

S- We will have an intercultural diet from all corners of the world. We will have South Asian food at least every week and during common traditions. It depends on if I can get my hands on traditional food and spices as well. I know that not all South Asian food is spicy but I will set aside portions for the girls where I can adjust the heat level. M has already told me that he’s going to love my cooking be it good or bad. Ha. There’s no bad food in my house!

M- Food?! :D Well, since she loves cooking, I already know there’s not going to be a problem with the food. Yes we will have an intercultural diet, for sure. S will really get hands well on the traditional food and spices plus I have no problems whether it’s American food she cooks or just the traditional food of my culture, I never have to complain about the food, because I know she will do that for me with all her devotion so I would love it anyhow.

What about American holidays?

S- Of course we will follow them! It’s deeply rooted in my traditions and something I look forward teaching the girls. We will be also incorporating Muslim traditions and South Asian food. Actually I can’t wait to dress M up in Halloween costumes and send him out with the girls to go trick or treating! Hehe.

M- Why not? We would celebrate all American holidays as well as the Muslim traditional holidays. It will be fun and I wonder how I will look like dressed up in a Halloween costume lol It will be fun though J

What about an intergenerational house hold?

S- I have openly welcomed the idea of having his parents and siblings living with us. I think it would be great for everyone. Yes, the house hold may be hectic as far as amount of people in the house. But I think it will be quite some time before this happens and by then with future planning in mind, everything will work out.

M- I don’t think S will have a problem with that. We have discussed that already and I know she will take care of it very well. She’s very caring and understanding. But it’s not going to be any sooner, it will be a long time till my parents might wish to come and start living at our place, and we can accommodate them and I look forward to it. Even if S’s mom wishes to stay with us, I have no issues. I would be glad that she will be living with us.

What about his/her parents?

S- I am actually excited to meet Amme (mom) and Abbu (dad)! I can’t wait to be part of their family and be openly accepted as their beyTi (daughter). I can’t wait to taste Amme’s cooking and learn how to cook South Asian cooking and household duties from her! I know many Gori (white and or American) girlfriends and wives who do not look forward to this or even like it. Not I! I think I will love it. I am excited to meet Abbu because he sounds so smart and open to teaching me how the household should be run from a man’s view point and see how they treat each other. I think they provided a great role model for M because he has turned out so great!

M- I am happy to meet her parents. I look forward to meeting them and make them feel content that I will take care of their daughter and love her always and she wouldn’t suffer anything like her past. I want to be with her for the rest of her life, loving her, being the father of her children, taking care of her and being the best husband. I am pretty sure I will make her parents proud.

Will you be staying in the states?

S- Yes. I am by law forced to stay here due to custody reasons and I could not imagine changing that. We will be visiting M’s homeland when we can and when it’s safe to travel there. M has family in Texas, so I imagine we will be spending a lot of time down there. When we are older and the kids are grown and married, who knows.

M- Yes we will be living in the States that’s what I want too. We will visit my homeland sometimes if we plan to, but since I have much family in Texas too, so we will definitely be spending time over there on holidays.

What is one thing that makes you nervous about Muslim/American traditions?

S- Offending someone by accident. I actually have mini panic attacks over this! I think after a year or so I should be ok. I am actually more curious what makes M nervous about American traditions!

M- I don’t know too much about American traditions, but there’s nothing I suppose that I will be nervous about when it comes to traditions as long as it doesn’t speak against my religion or devalues Islamic values and beliefs.

What is one thing you think you will have difficulty relationship wise in context of your cultural differences?

S- Conflict resolution in the beginning. I think there will be times where this will test our relationship. I am very forward and to the point. I typically will firmly make my point very loud and clear. I have realized through M that my “roughness” isn’t helpful. Ha. I blame it on my past because it wasn’t used as a resolution skill but more of a survival skill if you will. He is teaching me to be more gentle and calm with my words. I am adapting though because he respect me so much that he won’t retort with bad words or even in his tone of voice. He respects me so much out of love that the idea of just casually throwing words at him seems so impossible now.

M- I guess she already said it. I don’t know whether I should term it as a cultural difference, but I guess it’s more of a personality because I like to be polite and I like to be treated the same way. My anger, my emotions are always under my control if I realize it’s hurting the other person. I get over it instantly for the other person. S is very straight forward yet considerate and that’s her personality and I respect her for that. It’s better to be clear than being hideous and hiding feelings and keeping them in your heart because they come out in anger off and on and creates more complications. That’s why I find it good if she’s straightforward and tell me things honestly if she doesn’t like something I did, or what so ever. She is being gentle and polite with me and I know she is doing it for me, and I really love her for that! There’s nothing more I can ask for because I believe cruel words damage more than just actions themselves.

What is one thing that you didn’t expect to learn?

S- That even though there are deeply rooted stereotypes and racism, that there are open and loving people who accept you no matter what! I always was afraid of the stereotypes that were held against American women and especially divorced American women with children stereotypes. M threw all those stereotypes out the window because he loves me no matter what! His love for me will not be broken by anything! That my worth will never be devalued by what others think or say. I am so thankful for this!

M- It is how to treat an angry woman calmly and patiently J I learnt we need to give people some time if they need to get over their emotions when they are really upset about something.

How do you plan on teaching and protecting the girls form other’s ignorance when it comes to your relationship?

S- Well I don’t think you can protect them from life. I think I can teach them what is truly important in life and show them this through my actions. They know that your skin color, religion, income, culture and gender is all the same when it comes to human rights. No one is better or less. All are equals. I will also teach them kindness and knowledge when it comes to them hearing and seeing stereotypes and racism. I can’t protect them from heartaches of life but I can at least lessen the blows and heal their wounds but my love and my actions.

M- I will be very careful in telling them things that will always keep them neutral so they can speak for themselves and for the right if people show ignorance towards them. They will be the speakers instead of listeners. They will know the right things they should know. I will do anything to protect them from other people’s ignorance and even from the heartaches as much as I can. S and I have seen life; we can share our experience and minimize the troubles that may come their way, so the girls can turn them away before it strikes them. Of course to some extent, they will learn from their mistakes too, but I believe it’s one of the responsibilities of the parents too to protect their children from difficulties by restricting them initially from things which they might think look attractive and beneficial for them but actually they are not, and I will not let them suffer, I will sit and make them understand but if they insist persistently, I will let them go thru it so they will realize parents’ have much experience they can learn from.

What is something that you are not looking forward too?

S- People’s ignorance to be frank. I know that we will always encounter it. I know that it will always exist. But I hope that the kindness in people’s hearts will allow them to change their thoughts when they see how great our relationship is. Our relationship will work out regardless of other’s opinions. We will prove that our race and cultures become transparent when it comes to love.

M- I agree with S completely. People’s ignorance will always be there, but I too hope that someday they might realize how stronger our love and bond is, and eventually they could get over it. Another thing that I don’t look forward to would be people’s discrimination. It would somewhat hurt me to go through it. I wouldn’t appreciate if people discriminate when it comes to treating our biological children because they should be like all other children – the way they should be treated.

What is something that you look forward too?

S- Well there are several things I look forward too. But the most prominent one is spend the rest of my life with M. It motivates me so much and I know that motivation will be continuing because I cannot picture a day without M in my life.

M- The only thing I look forward to is to get over unworthy conflicts and misunderstandings and things which would create distance b/w us. We just need to understand each other more and let go things that will only make us feel bad and upset. I always like to quickly get over conflicts and try to make things simpler and easier for both of us because our love is the root to this relationship and it must be strong no matter what. We have a long way to go if we stand by each other firmly. Last but not the least, can’t wait to be around my wifey any longer.

If you had to give someone one tip on intercultural relationship what would it be?

S- Well first and foremost, if you love someone nothing else will matter but what is in their heart. Secondly, you are your own being. You are in control of what you think and what you feel. No one else has the right to sway your feelings or make you feel a certain way. Love truly cannot be contained by what a group of people think is right for you. If you love someone, love them with all your heart. When you do nothing else matters.

M- I would write the same thing down here that S did. Agreed 100% with it J

Fabulous Fall Flavors: Spiced Cider Pumpkin Butter!

If you think I took the time to peel, cube, steam and puree an actual uncooked pumpkin to make this, you are crazy! It also helps that Pie Pumpkins haven't hit the stores yet! But this was easy to make and some what time consuming. For the effort, this is really yummy! I actually had to put it back in the fridge because I was eating spoonfuls of the stuff just by it's self!

To me this just screams fall flavors. While it was cooking my house was filled with the smells of a baking pumpkin pie and I was so impatient to taste this! I actually could see using this pumpkin butter in bread, pies and cake! Mmmmm cheese cake with this? Possibly!

This my favorite and my favorite to share with my loved ones!

Ingredients:

1 29-oz can pumpkin puree

3/4 cup brown sugar

3/4 cup white sugar

3/4 cup apple cider ( I used almost a whole cup of cider)

1 1/2 tsp ginger

1/4 tsp cloves

1/4 tsp of mace or allspice

2 tsp of cinnamon

1 tsp nutmeg

Directions:

1- In a medium to large sauce pan, add cider and spices. Heat to a low boil.

2- Add in the pumpkin and sugars. Mix well and reduce heat to low.

3- *WARNING* This will not boil like normal liquids. This will splatter when heated. To avoid burns, cover. When stirring lift lid up just high enough to slide spoon in and keep the lid on. Stir like this once stirred you can remove lid to stir but remember to recover.

4- When it's reduced and thickened, remove from heat. Use clean canning jars or any small containers. I prefer canning jars and I used the small quilted ones, I filled mine to the top but that's because I knew the extra would make the recipients happy! I wouldn't recommend doing so but it's up to you. Fill each jar with 3/4 to one cup of the pumpkin butter WHILE IT'S HOT! This will help the jars to self seal. I ended up with four jars filled to the top.

If you refrigerate this it will last up to a month or so in the fridge or you can freeze up to six months.

It took about 35-40 minutes to go from this:

To this:

I hope you enjoy this!

Wedding ideas!

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American wedding ideas and inspiration!

So I know I said prior too that I had taken a cool down from our relationship but I found that to be too hard. I can't stay away from M, not even for a minute.

I thought I'd post some images of where I am pulling my inspiration from for our black and white themed wedding.

I am sure I will be adding to this!